Sometimes you know things about yourself but you don’t really believe them until someone else says so to you.
- You need to know yourself before you know anyone else. You have to know what you like before you can let someone get close to you, and before you get close to them (note: these are 2 different concepts. not simultaneous occurrences by default). If you don’t know yourself, you’ll lose yourself in that other person. You’ll just be enveloped into their world and their personality and you may actually become them, and throw away everything you once knew about yourself.
- I forgot what it feels like to like someone. “Like like” them, to refer to the language of my 6th grade self. Maybe it’s because it’s a little different with each time I start to feel that way about a new person, or maybe it’s because the last person I felt this way for it ended up poorly, so I blocked out that intensity and gush of feeling that came on at first. But it’s a definite feeling.
The middle, the second guessing:
- Are you going to keep hesitating or are you going to try things in my life and have the ability to learn and reflect on them after, rather than wonder what it would have been like? You stand to gain a lot more with the second option, even if that second option initially causes huge losses (i.e. a loss in confidence after failed attempts).
“If we listened to our intellect we’d never have a love affair. We’d never have a friendship. We’d never go in business because we’d be cynical: ‘It’s gonna go wrong.’ Or ‘She’s going to hurt me.’ Or,’I’ve had a couple of bad love affairs, so therefore . . .’ Well, that’s nonsense. You’re going to miss life. You’ve got to jump off the cliff all the time and build your wings on the way down.” – Ray Bradbury
- So, make the move. Don’t wait for it to come to you, nicely packaged and wrapped. (See here, 20 seconds of courage ).
- The thing is, people are going to think what they want no matter what you do. So just do you. As long as you’re not hurting anyone, and as long as you’re happy safe and healthy – just do you.
- If it ends, it ends. I date people with the vision of potentially marrying them and being with them forever. That’s always my end game. I’m not here to fool around. My time is valuable and I’m not going to invest in you if I don’t see you/us being valuable in the long run.
- Reflect on it. Take enough time to inwardly review what happened. Reflection is how you learn. Honestly review if faults were your own or another person’s. Time will help with the honesty of your reviews. Initially everything can easily be made to be blamed on another person. But if you don’t catch your faults or their faults, you’ll very likely fall into those same mistakes and patterns over again, and it’s frustrating to go through something twice like that.